Okay, I just want to sound this out.
I am turning 30 this year. I think by now I should be comfortable in my own skin. I think others should stop being surprised when they see me act different then they think or expect me to act, that person has not existed for a while, I changed while you were living your own life. I think I should be willing to push myself and expect better results. I am not going through a mid-life crisis, I am trying to decide how to live my life to its fullest possible measure.