This week.

This has been a bad week and it is only Wednesday.

I have been tired, depressed and tense. I know I am pushing myself too hard at times but cannot seem to stop. Last week was so lovely that I ignored the way this week started, ignored the mounting sadness and tension. I watch things break around me and do not have the strength to care. I got called out at work for calling them "you guys" and not "we or us" when I have been on the job almost a year now, but to me they are still strangers.

I am going to take myself out for dinner tonight and see if I can pick myself up a bit. Tonight is working on the rental house and trying to clean a bit. Trying to downsize and organize my life a bit. Maybe it will clear up my state of mind a smidge as well. Fingers crossed.