Conscientiousness (via I was an expat wife)
Conscientiousness is something I strive for. I am a procrastinator and I know it. I would rather do things I love then slog through the things I hate doing, so those get put off, and get put off again.
But at the same time, I love making lists and checking off that I have managed to accomplish something, the gold star to highlight the day.
My mantra right now is “Confidence”. I want to be seen as strong and certain, not waffling over issues. I like where I am in my life and am happy being myself so I should not want to change my life to suit everyone else.
All too often in my life I have tried to mold myself after others only to constantly fall short. I was a master of Masks who was willing to have a different face for everyone I met. The fact is I am tired of it. I know what I want and am now determined that the real me will be what everyone sees. I just have to be confident in my actions and decisions and follow them through.
My job is broadening and changing, pushing my comfort zones and I am trying to push through the panic and show a confident face while getting things done. I have decided to take this approach to the rest of my life as well. Have to see if I can keep it up, wish me luck!